Just a bit of recently...

Congratulation to my cousin sister, Vivi Chin. She got 10As in her SPM.
On the day of SPM result released, I was probably more emo and sad than those who got their result. I can feel the stress. When everyone is asking you: ''Hey, your cousin get 10As, I think you can score well right? '' Kinda stress to hear this, I just give a wide smile at them and answer them I don't know.

Is not the stress they give me, my parents don't even tell me to score full A, but I am giving myself too much. I have a very high expectation on myself, I scare I couldn't do well. When the time I know my senior who used to be my leader got a full A, I feel like crying, cause I scare I can't make it, and people will start to make comparison again.

On the same day, we celebrated our school principal 's birthday. We bought him a cake, and a custom made casing. Actually he was quite busy, because he need to go to get the result and come back to school around 11am. But, he came back quite late... I actually ask him on the day before.
Me: '' Sir, are you free tomorrow? When you come back?''
Sir: '' Ya, why?''
Me: '' No lah... Need to see you...''
Sir: '' (*he knew it) keep silent. ''

Then he kept silent... My teacher told me he know it just that he don't want to bongkarkan our surprise. HAH.